October 28, 2006

9 lives. 1 down. 8 more to go.
Like a phoenix rising from the ashes…Rise to an ambience that looks familiar…
that feels new…
9 lives. 2 down. 7 more to go.
Look around…searching eyes..searching soul..Cant find what you are looking for..
9 lives. 3 down. 6 more to go.
With the realization that dreams weren’t realised..New dreams vanish into thin air…
9 lives. 4 down. 5 more to go.
Strengthened belief weakened. Weakened belief weakens…
9 lives. 5 down. 4 more to go.
Wander aimlessly…question endlessly….
destination-none…answers-none

9 lives. 6 down. 3 more to go.
What you could have is what you dont have. What you dont have is what you will never have.
9 lives. 7 down. 2 more to go.
Just like the trust,the promises,the dreams. Everything is broken inside and continues breaking.
9 lives. 8 down. 1 more to go.
Everything is moving at its normal pace. Only you are slowing down, only you have stopped.
9 lives. 9 down. None to go.
Many lives lived.
Many deaths died.
Everyday is a good day to rise like a phoenix from the ashes.
Everyday is a good day to resurrect.

away..

all you ever wanted was to get away
(from the noise, from that maddening place)
all you ever wanted, was to be released
from that cell you were born into
(you didnt know the noise would always follow you)
and now you dont know what to do
you dont know what you want, where to go to
anymore
there is no home, there never was
you dont want to go back
(but the cursed noises keep following you)

you kept your senses, your nerves
so that one day
you could get away
convincing yourself it was them
(not you, who had the noise)
now you dont know where to go anymore
where do you go from here, how do you get away
get away from the noise
(that keeps with you all the time)
where do you get away
to where no one can find you…

sound of the purgatory

the noise
the goddamnd awful piercing noise
that cursed loudsome sound fills my brain
keeps me awake
all day all night
wont let me sleep, wont let me think
burning my senses
uprooting my nerves
blinding me
wont let me
wont let me move, wont let me think
goddamned sound pierces the skin of my brains
wont let me do nothing at all
nothing at all, cant see at all
cant see anymore, take my senses away
cant breathe at all
take my nerves away
dont need, this awful goddamnd noise, this life
take it away, poison me
this cursed sound, piercing the skin of my brain
my eyes, my ears, blinding my senses
burning my nerves, can’t do nothing at all
take it away, i’d rather not be this way